“Why don’t you tell me about yourself?” -A question I dread above almost all others. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
How do you describe yourself accurately, succinctly, honestly, modestly, fairly, interestingly, especially when you are pretty sure you don’t actually know yourself? You don’t. You list the things that are important to you and hope that it helps other people understand you a little better, I guess. So here goes…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I’m a 40-something mother of a toddler, stepmother of a teenager and an almost-teenager, wife, teacher, mental health counsellor, writer, reader, lover-of-cooking-and-baking (though hater of the nightly chore of “What’s for supper?”), living in the perpetual winter of mountainous Canada. I love the mountains and the ocean and animals and sleep and peace and beauty and stillness. And I don’t get enough of any of those. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I’m also a person so tied up in her own head that I don’t know which way I’m going most of the time, and I have decided that has to stop. So really, for the purposes of this blog, the previous paragraph doesn’t matter. I am a person on a quest to untangle the Gordian Knot that is my past and present, my psyche, my personality, me. I wrote recently about wanting to be different, but a friend kindly pointed out that I don\u2019t need to be different, I don\u2019t have to change myself into someone else, but instead, I\u2019m evolving. That\u2019s a much nicer way to think of it, that I\u2019m not broken, I\u2019m evolving into being more myself. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Of course, I\u2019ve spent far too much time around pre-adolescent boys and all I can think about when I hear the word evolution is Pok\u00e9mon, and then I have to wonder what new powers or abilities I will have once I\u2019ve \u201cevoluted\u201d (I don\u2019t know if that\u2019s the actual word they use in Pok\u00e9mon, but that\u2019s what my stepson has always called it. Of course, he\u2019s also the boy who said \u201ckasploded\u201d instead of \u201cexploded\u201d until he hit age thirteen, so who knows).\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n
So About Me: I am a human being trying to reconcile all the disconnected bits of myself, to understand why I do the things I do so that I can change the unhealthy things and be even better at the healthy ones, so I can be happy (at least some of the time) and experience life as it is meant to be, for the first time in a very long time. I write this blog as part of this quest, to make real the mess in my head, and because I have loved words and their power since I was a small child. I have held back my words for too many years. No longer. Here am I. And here they are. Hear them. Hear me. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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