Beautiful and broken<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Brilliant and foolish<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elegant and rough<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Determined pushover<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Captive eagle<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Wild and caged<\/p>\n\n\n\n
<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I collect your broken pieces<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And attempt to construct meaning<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Where maybe there never was<\/p>\n\n\n\n
<\/p>\n\n\n\n
If I am a cycle breaker<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I\u2019m saying you did something wrong<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Which is violating<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I\u2019m sorry<\/p>\n\n\n\n
You did your best<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I can\u2019t fault that<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I only wish I could have helped you<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Become free<\/p>\n\n\n\n
<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Though I suppose you are free <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Now<\/p>\n\n\n\n
At the end<\/p>\n\n\n\n
But free here, where you wanted to be<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The whole world to explore<\/p>\n\n\n\n
But you are free now<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Of all of us<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And all of this<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The eagle stretches her wings<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And soars<\/p>\n\n\n\n
<\/p>\n\n\n\n
More than seventeen years, and I\u2019m not sure I miss her any less than I did that first day. The shock is muted, but the pain remains vivid and strong. She is still the first person I think to call when something big happens and the person I most wish my daughter could meet; they would have been kindred spirits, soul sisters, bosom companions, best friends.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Our relationship was broken, but her loss only broke it more. There can be no healing when one half is gone. You cannot reattach a limb that is buried in the dirt, even in a lead-lined coffin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cLife is pain, highness. Anyone who says differently is selling something.\u201d\u2015 William Goldman, The Princess Bride<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n <\/p>\n\n\n\n Bleak, but true.<\/p>\n\n\n\n <\/p>\n\n\n\n To laugh is to cry<\/p>\n\n\n\n To have is to lack<\/p>\n\n\n\n To rejoice is to fear <\/p>\n\n\n\n To love is to grieve<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Beautiful and broken Brilliant and foolish Elegant and rough Determined pushover Captive eagle Wild and caged I collect your broken pieces And attempt to construct meaning Where maybe there never was If I am a cycle breaker I\u2019m saying you did something wrong Which is violating I\u2019m sorry You did your best I can\u2019t fault …<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"nf_dc_page":"","om_disable_all_campaigns":false,"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[7,12],"tags":[55,92,94,95,93],"class_list":["post-84","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-escape","category-my-mother","tag-cycle-breaker","tag-grief","tag-loss","tag-mourning","tag-pain","entry entry-center"],"aioseo_notices":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/insidemylockdown.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/84","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/insidemylockdown.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/insidemylockdown.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/insidemylockdown.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/insidemylockdown.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=84"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/insidemylockdown.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/84\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":85,"href":"https:\/\/insidemylockdown.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/84\/revisions\/85"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/insidemylockdown.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=84"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/insidemylockdown.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=84"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/insidemylockdown.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=84"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}